Now, while I never experimented with anything as life-threatening as the big H, I have done battle with alcohol and food addictions. It was bad enough to alter my life and threaten my health and security. I sat down and tried to express what I was feeling on paper. This is what I came up with.
The Edge
And with a
breathless promise, your seduction lured me in.
You stole my
soul, and trapped it whole,
there
inside my virgin skin.
Glassy
eyed, I stepped outside and stood
on twilight’s ledge.
A one night
stand, you grabbed my hand,
As I inched closer,
to the edge.
I lingered in
the darkness, afraid that I might fall,
Hypnotized and
tranquilized,
my back against
the wall.
And still you
had this hold on me, so able to entice,
The treasured
sin that pulled me in
It came at quite
a price. ,
All that I had
worked for began to slip away,
The black
reality, of my mortality,
Did so, consume
my days.
I look now to my
future, there’s nothing there to see,
I’m qualified
for suicide
That’s all
that’s left for me.
Oh
yes, you kept your promise, you said you’d
never leave,
and
when I’m gone, you’ll linger on.
You’ll
be right there to grieve.